Destination Grave

Wanted life to be fun,
As in the toddler class,
Not a pain in the arse,
But still lived it,
Half-hearted, not satisfied,
Never liked it,
I always had to lick it.

I still want to live,
I wanna live my life,
But not this way,
That kills me softly.

I never wanna die,
Coz I knew I will love,
Someone, someday, sometime,
Who makes me happy.

I never wanna die,
Coz I knew I will suceed,
Someone, someday, sometime,
Who makes me proud.

I go crazy,
I go nuts,
I need a different butt,
I need something different,
Death c’mon death,
Wanted to feel it, experience it,
Wanted to see life,
Life after death.

I crave a near death experience today,
Nobody knows, nobody cares,
Oh life,
I never liked it, coz nobody liked me,
I never loved it, coz nobody loved me,
I never felt it, coz nobody felt me.
I see the angels in the dark sky,
I see they call me to their freight train,
But I wanna sleep tonight,
In my dark grassy grave.