Poetic Arcana

Season 2

2003-05-02T11:16:00.000-04:00

Life is true when I see it full,
Do I do a favour? Living it as I do,
All seem so mean,
Meaningless and not understood,
Should I stand it more?
As it’s always a steal, huh? No big deal.

My dear friend, can you sing me those
Few lines of your living vows, as it is.
Now it beats, faster as never before,
Hold on, it’s just a lie.
Do your work, before it gets late,
Carry on with what’s waiting, at its best.

It seems so hard,
But it’s the way you deal,
The function is hard to seal.

Storming through season 2,
Wearing an apron,
Storming through season 2,
Making no mistakes,
Storming through season 2,
Paid after due.

Cobainism

2003-03-21T14:45:00.000-05:00

One eye closed and one night stand,
Made me close and made me near,
Cause I see, you in me,
All night long I didn’t sleep.

Planned to be the one,
Planned to see you soon,
All in new, and grunge is dead.

See me faint, and see me die,
All is fair in love and war,
Cause I see, you in me,
All night long I didn’t sleep.

Watch it moving on,
Make in moving on,
Keep it playing pal,
Want to hear it hard.
Peace and love and empathy.

Insane Roxanne

2003-03-09T12:38:00.000-05:00

You loved me so late,
Should I take this as my fate?
I better jump into the well,
Before it’s late, my mind to sell,
To take a bath, don’t ring the bell.

Roxanne, love me, love me, till I die,
Roxanne, kill me, kill me, I am alive,
Just till 2 and 7 it comes soon.

In my vein, my blood is cold,
How could you just rip it off?
Dripping blood, drop by drop,
Can I get what I want?
Got to free myself, wish me luck,
Wish me goodbye.

Roxanne, love me, love me, till I die,
Roxanne, kill me, kill me, I am alive,
Just till 2 and 7 it comes soon.

Drug Nastik

2003-03-09T11:46:00.000-05:00

Terrible numbness, beautiful dreams,
Its hard, terrible sorrows,
Drug fixation, an obsession, null possession.

Marijuana – in my head,
Marijuana – can I take?
Marijuana – get, set, go,
Marijuana – take it easy.

Mistakes and guilt being flushed out,
Man who lived with no life,
I am no gay person,
Never had grass and speed,
This fated defeat can you take.

Heroin – not a druggie,
Heroin – makes me free,
Heroin – set up salsa,
Heroin – take it easy.

Addiction To The Fullest

2003-02-11T19:23:00.000-05:00

Waiting for me in the fourth level,
All I could see was your sweet smile,
Tell me what you feel,
A pleasant drive down the marine,
No way out for me,
A level of complete happiness,
My libido keeps on warning,
Something’s wrong just about to happen.

I need to get out anyways,
The core is not the desire,
This is so uninspiring and degrading,
I wanna be you share,
Take me through this,
Let me feel it.

And I am happy now,
I have a whole new story now,
Lots of lovely things to do,
My share of love to each being,
Take me through this,
Let me feel it.

Tell me what you feel,
A pleasant drive down the marine,
No way out for me,
A level of complete happiness,
My libido keeps on warning,
Something’s wrong just about to happen.

What fear can conquer?
What pain can seize?
What darkness reveals?
Can’t I just come out of it?

Cacophony Of Love

2003-02-11T19:20:00.000-05:00

That heavy dosage of fame,
Till chased by paparazzi away,
On the couch of the royal limo,
For the princess by my side,
I walked a hungry mile,
Wanting to smile all my pain,
As I hate to see my efforts all go in vain,
I am not backing off,
Going to stick here, very near,
Going to get you some day,
Just to feed you to sharks next day.

Check it dear; by the way, I said it,
A bit of shit spoken,
See it by my way, I’m completely shaken,
It’s just bout’ a go,
Ya, it’s over, already over,
Over, over above your head,
Has fighting ever helped?
Then why drop bombs,
Hatred growing day by day,
All by itself in a mind junkyard.

You are different,
So let all dreams come true,
This soldier works for you,
Now don’t you let me loose.

Civilise your mind,
Carrying a heart with no one either,
All the dreams coming true,
The story shouldn’t end here,
Just for a second I see,

Faded dreams,
Bringing aroma,
Back on to future,
Reveal the madness,
Darkened pride,
Dreaming dreams.

Guit-air Ways

2003-02-11T18:33:00.000-05:00

For a day, everyday,
Keep this highs and lows away,
Fighting on the edge, fighting for freedom,
I trekked the top of a mountain,
Until no rolling rock stopped me.

Many of these clanging matches,
Grass cutting me in crisscross patches,
Who’s going to take it more?
Not me, I couldn’t come across,
This hill is a big one,
September rain loved by a Libran,
And how much pleasant can it get?

Swallow me, oh! Earth,
Punish me with no new birth,
All dirty scars on my face,
Can this lawyer accept my case?

You can’t knock me down,
It’s not easy, no easy work,
No fault now, I’m true,
Sun breaks for something new,
Evolve; I am your dream,
Evolve; I am all new,
Evolve; I am true,
Evolve; I am the king,
The flight, flight above all oceans.

A Known Secret

2003-02-03T01:50:00.000-05:00

I never knew,
What happened, what really happened,
In my absence, madness,
Can I take you out?
To a parking lot, a parking lot,
In my new car, bizarre.

I will keep you satisfied,
I want you to laugh and smile,
I can take you to the glooming moon,
I want you to dance to my tune,
Hey you lady, see me all the time,
Just to make sure I’m fit and fine.

Oh Lord! Save me, please help me,
Can I tell her the secret?
I have this fear in my mind and I regret,
I regret every second I exist,
For now she knows me well,
Can she forget it soon?
Garden and flowers let them bloom,
I stabbed her in the back,
Oh Lord! Save me, please help me,
Can I tell her the secret?

Guilt - Repair

2003-02-02T15:15:00.000-05:00

Sometime, in my life, I smelt it,
Yahehe, yahoho, I smelt bad,
Foul play in the ballroom,
I wasn’t louder, can I be?
Stranger, you lived with my woman,
And I was helpless, hey lady.

No smoke, no tar,
Never visited a hooker’s bar,
Didn’t even had a martini dive,
I’m still trying hard to stay alive.

Nobody could be mean to me,
When I think about it now,
I smell it bad again,
And this time I was sure,
Foul play in the ballroom,
I say, when you hear me,
You will swear and I assure.

Cockroaches in my head and food,
They smell bad, this psycho mind,
I will achieve it latter,
Psychotic behaviour now and then,
Dye me black; tie me in a sack,
I won’t mind coz I’m trying harder.

An intruder in my mind,
Playing and diving in blood,
Let me live, yahehe, yahoho, let me, some more time,
I won’t sleep this time,
Make me pursue happiness,
This journey won’t end,
I can’t sit in an armchair,
Neither can I hold.

Today, again I smell bad,
Foul play in the ball room,
Endless flowers in the flower garden,
Made all bouquets of love,
And I smell it again,
My journey is endless,
An intruder in my mind,
Playing and diving in blood,
Let me live, yahehe, yahoho, let me, some more time,
I won’t sleep this time,
Make me pursue happiness,
This journey won’t end,
I can’t sit in an armchair,
Neither can I hold.

No smoke, no tar,
Never visited a hooker’s bar,
Didn’t even had a martini dive,
I’m still trying hard to stay alive.

Aquarian Salvation

2003-02-02T12:44:00.000-05:00

Mien as bright as the sunshine,
Grey dark clouds find way back home,
Tears misting in her eyes,
Just for the passion in the work,
You help me, why can’t you?
You help me, only you can.

Touch wood and feel the word,
Uncle Sam waiting for us to be there,
And no extra source of source,
Salvation, birth, death and regeneration,
You help me, why can’t you?
You help me, only you can.

It’s like no breakfast without bacon,
It’s like a gambler without money,
It’s like a killer with a heart,
It’s like a rocker without honey, you,
Oh you, you help me, why can’t you?
You help me, only you can.

Can't Take It No More

2003-02-01T18:40:00.000-05:00

Nobody could actually drift apart,
Every time I did pause for my little heart,
No innuendoes in your private life,
Live in the parade and paradise inside,
I just wanna aim an arrow,
Completely taking off all those sorrows,
Imaginable stuff comes out for me,
Tangible evidence proves and just see.

It isn’t so perfect,
Measuring tape in your head,
It isn’t so perfect,
Achieve an attainable target,
And I’m no perfect,
Just like you, standing out alone.

Building our castle all alone,
Why couldn’t you wait till I’m done?
Why couldn’t you wait until I sleep?
I hope to hypnotise you, girl,
So can you see me perfect in the blur?
I feel so special today,
Just like that and a reason to say,
Garden of Eden waiting for you to pose,
A river in Virginia waiting for you, just to flow,
Stagnant lives feel so good,
And so could I feel the same.

What aren’t you sure about?
Know me, Wine is sweet,
Divine you, know me,
Know me, Wine is sweet,
Divine you, know me.

Nir-wanna

2003-01-27T17:16:00.000-05:00

Slimy fish, won’t you give up,
Chance is yours, I take a laugh,
A growing phobia within me,
Everyday, I’m seeing you losing,
Never had tequila, not even a shot,
Speaking from an open mind,
Sinner says, close to the evil skin,
Open your arms for roaring wind.

Have something to see till the end,
The feathers stuck in the bushes,
I can’t help, nor can you,
The roaring winds come by me very soon,
Never had tequila, not even a shot,
Speaking from an open mind,
Sinner says, close to the evil skin,
Open your arms for roaring wind.

Seek a refuge in me,
Liberate me from all sins,
And grieve not to do so,
Slimy fish and a pesky friend,
Never turn me up to a killjoy,
Liberate me, Nir–wanna.

God, destiny or fate,
Who’s guiding me through?
Who’s giving me power to rule?
Who’s sealing our fate?
And a twist in tale.
Slimy fish, could you hold,
Pesky friend, try putting some salt.

By-lanes Of The Previous

2003-01-25T15:13:00.000-05:00

Fry the brain and board the train,
The nomad rules and ways it all,
Lost my love and lost it all,
Mercy no left for me,
The sweetest knife was my friend,
And I say so, coz it was done,
All to do, the snake had hissed,
The snake has hissed near my ears,
And I had a cut in my brow,
And so could everyone suffer from migraine.

Om shanti Om,
Peace is what I got to seize,
Let me conquer and see me done,
They feared no evil, evil to do,
Nomad rules,
Sweetest knife,
Ceasing peace,
Conquer death.

Ginger in my soup, I hate,
Being alone is my fate,
Madness dreams all could see,
The stage arrived when I rose from bed,
Peanuts and wafers I hated for lunch,
Could only afford a glass of poison,
I tried to,
Fry the brain and board the train,
The nomad rules and ways it all,
Lost my love and lost it all,
Mercy no left for me.

X–Rated X–Ray

2003-01-21T18:15:00.000-05:00

Lie always to protect all,
Not for the betrayal, forget,
Pain will exist, dude,
My human mind insists, oh my god,
Pull the lever let it flow,
I was right for the very first time,
Now you know,
I am an x-rated x-ray,
Save all from the grave,
I am an x-rated x-ray,
And play the funny game of Dave.

Birds building its nest for future,
Till the end of it comes by zephyr,
Dogs barking and making voices,
For an anchor shaped tool size,
One thing leads to another,
And I have learnt everything from my mother,
People pray for themselves,
Mate n feed n kill n repeat.

This is the excellence for passion,
Human mind weathers, the very old fashion,
Birds building its nest for future,
Till the end of it comes by zephyr,
Dogs barking and making voices,
For an anchor shaped tool size,
Now you know,
I am an x-rated x-ray,
Save all from the grave,
I am an x-rated x-ray,
And play the funny game of Dave.

Land Minds

2003-01-14T10:40:00.000-05:00

Famine, drought with casted mines,
Starving, starvation of the hunger,
Peel the orange and feel the change,
Countless mines that lie scattered,
Waiting for their next prey,
Who's it going to be,
Maybe he or maybe she,
The next event of the starving free,
And I have no speech, no democracy.

Arched are the men of other faith,
Bend to the shadow of constant hate,
And who’s waiting,
Tell me who’s waiting,
Coz, I have no betting,
As death and chaos reign supreme.

Famine, drought and casted mines,
Famine, drought with casted mines,
Starving, starvation of the hunger,
Peel the orange and feel the change.

Down Came The Yellow Grain Of Sand

2003-01-04T14:52:00.000-05:00

One day in the morning,
When I got up early,
I could see the dust and feel the air,
I said to myself, I know to guard,
Heaven felt I was a complainer,
Hell said I am a loner,
They all denied, accepting,
And I knew, I can take over.
Let me sleep now, make me free,
I know, I can take over.

Nobody can rule the kingdom,
The conceptual kingdom of universe,
Nor can I, by my side,
I lead a life, a wireless talking commodity.

Famous people roaming around,
A short nap aside page three,
Time to activate for me,
Passed away in minutes,
Thorns pricked me, slayed in bushes,
Death chased me,
Until I meekly surrendered,
Kneeling on my bleeding knees,
Through lightning and thunder.

A Token Of Love

2002-12-26T02:56:00.000-05:00

My mouth was filled with rage and sadness,
Killed by a sceptre for flowing blood,
Hatred followed by jealousy and madness,
Everything for one and all.

I couldn’t just stop thinking,
Until I realised I have someone,
My own, my dear ones,
My folks, modern world speaks,
Yeah my parents,
I have my dad, my mom,
My dear ones, I love you all.

Why do I think of the bad?
When I never considered it in my life,
Why did I feel bad for the ones whom I never cared?
I’m sorry mom, I realised it,
Very slow, but once it happens,
And we learnt no one’s late.

Dada bought clothes and care,
Mama bought me music and love,
I’ve not to pay anything back,
And I hope this time nothing to dare.

This is just a token of love,
For I know, I can’t give,
What I’ve got, coz it’s difficult,
I can’t pay back the love and affection.

This may be a token of love,
For the dear ones,
Everyone realises it,
Very slow, but once it happens,
And we learnt no one’s late.

Thank you mama, thank you dada,
For given me everything that I am,
For taking me as I was,
Thank you for always being by my side.

25th December, 2002

2002-12-25T13:07:00.000-05:00

The only time in a year,
I find everyone smiling,
Smiling at strangers on the streets,
Christmas is on the air,
Magic spreads joy and cheer.

Day service and midnight mass,
Message of love and togetherness,
Gimme some time to think,
Haven’t we lost the meaning,
Changes around I see,
I see all that in a single wink.

Gather to pray but not to dance,
Thank God for the sacrifices not for the drink,
Sacrifices that have saved mankind,
And promises that we have to keep.

Sake of the humanity cause,
Make up for all the losses,
I’m here to make you understand,
And its your part to be there.

Together we pray and together we thank,
So we sing aloud the Christian song,
Day service and midnight mass,
Message of love and togetherness,
Gimme some time to think,
Haven’t we lost the meaning,
Changes around I see,
I see all that in a single wink.

The only time in a year,
I find everyone smiling,
Smiling at strangers on the streets,
Christmas is on the air,
Magic spreads joy and cheer.

A Rest In The West

2002-12-23T19:54:00.000-05:00

I left my place, with all belongings,
For a fly to the other part of the world,
Where work is just a make,
Of a new house and all in sake.

I’ve been from the west,
The royal coffee and liberty,
Enjoyed there in a lovely fest,
Danced and boozed all night long,
Jived all way in a Christmas song,
And I loved it more in the west.

I live in a small place,
And I have come to see,
What is left for me,
Just to find everything,
Every me and every you.

Hey, you love the west,
And you will love the rest,
It has made my world,
A small big place to feel.

Thankyou Friend

2002-12-23T19:14:00.000-05:00

I feel happy and I feel unchanged,
I feel joy and I feel me,
I feel freedom and I feel easy,
With the one who is very new and clean.

She lets me live my own life, sweet like her,
She lets me have complete freedom to be myself,
She just changes the bad ones that I have,
And its good for me and my family,
I am transformed into a new one,
Which has all lights and songs.

I needed an easy friend,
I broke the mirror and stuff,
I want to see you every night,
I had the memory, brain washed.

A friend who can see me through,
A friend who can make me new,
A friend just bout to care,
A friend, and one just like you.
See me through, make me yours,
I will be happy all through the years.

I have changed just by a day,
Fights weren’t all we had to lay,
We came closer and made promises,
Never to leave come what may.

Times have come and times have changed,
Carry on, you and me never will,
We give our hearts up to full,
Never to leave come what may.

I have found good, I have found new,
I have found life, I have found God,
I have found a new friend, as she is.

Sound Of The Cemetry

2002-12-23T14:47:00.000-05:00

Vampire, could I feel them,
Witches and sad heads low,
Always made for the dark,
A time capsule is what I show,
Vampire, could I see them.

No where to run, no place to hide,
No one to trust,
Worlds getting complicated,
Life’s getting sublimated,
Ain’t no revolution,
And I can’t see no molestation,
Earth just keeps on moving,
A division is so time consuming.

God, don’t make me a complainer,
You shouldn’t have been late,
Combat evil, combat black,
Delayed dejection and imperfection.

Everyone’s turning deaf mute,
Road’s heading for the dead end,
No where to run, no place to hide,
No one to trust,
Worlds getting complicated,
Life’s getting sublimated,
Ain’t no revolution,
And I can’t see no molestation,
Earth just keeps on moving,
A division is so time consuming.

Obsessed Quartz

2002-12-19T20:56:00.000-05:00

I wasn’t the paragon of virtue,
He expected, I heard, a denial,
People called me a junkie,
I wasn’t, man you said,
You sold it to me.

I know the world’s changing,
And so are you.
Recollect the days in the left wing,
You and me, laughed out loud,
Hey and you know you drove my wagon,
Upto it and I was fine.

And how much leeway should I give,
And how much leeway should I take,
And how much leeway is left now, folk,
Help me man, talk me out,
I won’t forget, days left out.

I was just a late-comer, and for a late night show,
I wasn’t the paragon of virtue,
We had the obsession, yeah the obsession.

Am bored of your disturbing nature,
You smelt my cash and you did it full,
And why do so?
Tell me why do so?
I don’t believe pal,
And don’t want to see you again,
Matters most is the heart,
Filled with curses and you are off the port.

How could I forget the rainy months?
And the swimming pool,
I wore your clothes for my date,
And wasn’t that made in a secular state.
An obsession, yeah we had the obsession.

The relation wasn’t nourishing,
When you told me you loved a nun,
I was up there to find,
Shivering in the scorching sun.

Live-In

2002-12-17T15:15:00.000-05:00

Maiden sun rises over,
Maiden life living on her,
Maiden hour the truth is here,
Maiden belief switching over,
And all is, all is fine.
Yeah, shining sunshine.

This phase, I left the dirty phase,
Dude, let me, gimme space,
Prepare yourself,
Am carrying you to an away planet.
Afforestation is what I do,
Travelling caravan and the Indian desert,
Stand aside and see me enjoy.

Final hour of the life,
Final bid to the world,
Final belief was just over,
Final talks just been heard,
And all is, all is dead.

Excess Xmas

2002-12-14T02:14:00.000-05:00

Dressed in marigold,
Sweet stuff, rock and roll,
The time was not to end,
Shiny flowers and lot to send.
X’mas in excess,
X’mas in excess.

Girl waited month long,
Just to see and everybody sang,
Bells and gifts made her way,
Merry x’mas was the day.
X’mas in excess,
X’mas in excess.

Day’s end she told me null,
Left me by the side,
I was happy by the end,
Got an invitation for the New Years Eve.
This was the Christmas Eve.

Mary's Lamp

2002-12-13T12:19:00.000-05:00

Mary was a girl, who was very clear,
She wanted things to change but was not very sure,
Things will happen but things should change,
Time has come and with the desire.

Mary learnt,
Spit out the hatred,
Spit out the rage,
Live like a family and enter new age,
Creation of a new nation,
How wonderful it would have been,
If such a world could ever be seen.

Mary’s lamp gave us light,
Accept it and stop the fight.

Stop the fight, have the fun,
Forget the religion, take the human,
F laden, remember Cobain.

Mary’s lamp is a boon,
Realise it very soon,
People now are not dear,
Left alone may have the fear.

Soul Insurance

2002-12-11T16:55:00.000-05:00

High fives for my chaps,
My girl’s not secured,
Am not insured, am not secured,
Show me the flame,
Light up and dance,
Now your friends blame,
And make you bounce.

Everyday is a misunderstanding,
Everyone’s just complaining,
Every time’s just passing.

Am not insured, am not assured,
She’s making up the tunes,
All in the moonlight blues,
Colours what we see today,
Flying all the stars today,
May this happen everyday.

Amazing features should have,
A lovely bow and a lovely tie,
Show me the high,
Make me fly,
Wanna catch you by the flowing air.

World binds, unbound bound,
Show the others for the pounce,
Am not insured, am not assured.

Every day’s something new,
Every day’s all is few,
Tomorrow you never know,
Tonight, make an excellency show.

The Great Nonsense

2002-12-05T11:23:00.000-05:00

Watch the set of designs,
Watch the set of culture,
Watch the set of difference,
And the set of sets.

Make it yours, I hate,
Make it his, who made,
All is ours, funny fate,
Death is caused by this mate.

All I could say, I really feel,
I do this for you,
But you see you really don’t care.
For whatever is made,
You at least care a damn.

My shoe’s lace,
The tied knot,
The very face,
All need the comfort cot.

The great nonsense is what I speak,
Why should I bribe?
Why can’t you take it.
It’s already late,
But you take your time,
The great nonsense is what I speak,
Why should I bribe?
Why can’t you take it.
The great nonsense is what I speak,
Why should I bribe?
Why can’t you take it.

Co-a`-stly Affair

2002-11-25T03:38:00.000-05:00

I wasn’t a coastal boy,
I wasn’t a hotel boy,
It wasn’t easy for me,
Just to see and just to leave,
You told me I can’t get there,
It’s not hard and it’s not tough,
Just don’t make me bare,
Oh no, just don’t make me bare.

We need to live our spirits,
Think of the heart, of the soul,
I fly high today, coz I see that minute,
You help me to rock and to roll.

Leave the poor things behind,
Make no differentiations,
We learnt value education,
And that wasn’t any stupid conference.

I am not a coastal boy,
Nor am I a hotel boy,
It wasn’t easy for me,
Just to see and just to leave.
Need not blame you for this,
And everyone knows you are a sweet miss.

Why am I not a coastal boy?
Why am I not a hotel boy?

Rusty Rustler

2002-11-22T02:44:00.000-05:00

The lane is lone,
You say am alone,
Ecological mindset make you think,
The past will make you blink,
Think of the memories we always had,
Think of the memories we never will.

Make a punch for this thirsty man,
Make him drink, make him sleep,
Just for the while, and just for the night.

Close your eyes to have a dream,
A palace of glass and mirror outside,
Aroma of tulips with me beside,
Flowing flower in the flower fall,
You the queen and me the king,
And you may always have me sing.

May you stop me at the downfall,
You spend the weekends in the shopping mall.

I am alone,
I am alone,
I am the rustler.

The Second Coming

2002-11-17T16:40:00.000-05:00

Save me when I am there,
Praise me when I am no where,
Bury me when I am gone.

Gone with the wind in the afterdark,
Wait in the midnight sun for the bark.
The afterdark place,
The windy mountain,
Give me solace,
No drill water fountain.
Farm and the bush where am I,
Talk to the creeps lonely sane,
Caught in the wire netted lane.

The holy man with his holy head,
Thought a lot for my daily bread,
He gave me place, gave me solace,
Made me live in his small cottage.
Got a hand to accompany,
Made me feel his own company,
Passing crops for the mans meal,
Switching over to the world’s deal,
It’s all the people’s deal.

Make him own,
Make him own the whole loan,
Wait in the afterdark place,
Due in the midnight sun,
Although I am not undone.

Curses For Sale

2002-11-14T03:11:00.000-05:00

Names everywhere at a very young age,
Was what I needed very late,
All prepared for this new age.
And yeah, I wanted this to happen,
With me, with me, only with me.

Had the treasure, got it measured,
Had the ambition, got the dedication,
Didn’t have no support, but couldn’t import.

Treasure all I had,
For you shall value most,
For the once you have forever lost.

Nobody stops me, no one tried it,
Never return dare they,
Be it words or be they darts,
Cure a wound you can,
Stop the blood you may,
Seal the path you shall,
For these do less than kill.
You can’t, you can’t, and you can’t stop me.

Made to die hard,
Had to try hard,
Wanted it really fast,
Smelt it very young,
No one to get it sung.
Oh yeah, this happened with me, with me, and why only with me.

It is present in my blood you see,
You can find it bloody black in me,
I still find it soaring high, enemy.

Hey you almighty,
Everybody suffers this wrath,
In times of his misery,
And I want this to happen to you buddy.

The Bad Portfolio

2002-10-21T12:50:00.000-04:00

Mine is a bad portfolio,
Occurs in my life’s strangest videos,
See me sing the shaman’s blue,
With all the lyrics of a low man too.
And I suffer with a bad portfolio.

Life is hate, I hate for me,
Hating one another is all I see,
They made me cry, made me die,
They bend my spine to the breaking point.

I can’t travel to elsewhere,
I’m stuck up in a nowhere,
They made me cry, made me die,
They made me realise that I have no friends.

I’ve become a function undone,
Derivation destruction,
Am riding on the flying death,
They made me cry, made me die,
They made me realise all I live is lies.

Did nothing when to be done,
Now that I’m undone,
I lie hear paralysed, completely disguised,
With no one to care,
And I pay all my undue fare,
So I carry me and my bad portfolio.

Boiled Egg

2002-10-11T15:32:00.000-04:00

Have lost the world,
Don’t like anything bold,
m.fs create all frustrations,
Hell is around all the creation.

I couldn’t feel the care,
I couldn’t pay the fare,
I couldn’t make it bare,
I couldn’t break the door.

All the m.f people,
Crashing my minds down,
I wanted to be a loner,
To prove the sucking moaners.

All I could do is smash a boiled egg,
Yeah, smash a boiled egg.

Counted numbers from back to one,
Lest I would have won,
Sucking love came into existence,
The end of this fucking resistance.

19 she was

2002-10-10T13:15:00.000-04:00

She was totally excited,
Now ideas were matured,
Cannot wait for the marriage,
Remembered the golden carriage,
It was a special day,
It was her birthday.

Global views, was the queen bee,
Wanted to be a teacher,
Always I was a preacher,
Dying to be a mainframe leader,
It was a special day,
It was her birthday.

She wanted to grow up,
Now could make a coffee cup,
Man, I gifted nothing,
All she wanted was me and nothing,
This was a special day,
It was her birthday.

I couldn’t resist,
As was a pessimist,
I liked her all the way,
She wanted to be at the bay,
It was a special day,
It was her birthday.

A/S/L?

2002-10-04T22:07:00.000-04:00

She was a harassed mother,
He was an absent father,
Least to bother,
Kids were delinquent.
The archetypal dysfunctional family.

Chinese whispers made all way,
Chillicholorophyll for the food,
Back biting the man’s say,
Done by charm offensive, did that good.

Western calypso all night long,
No cue ball at his place,
Sang the disaster song,
Oh the dirty phase, ya the dirty phase.

All want to know, the origin of a man,
All have to know, the destiny of that man,
You have learnt, nobody’s changing,
And I have seen, blur in the family.

Why do we have to ask?
Why do we have to ask?
Make everyone sad,
Why do we have to ask?

Pusho-Mania

2002-10-04T11:24:00.000-04:00

Why should we have a name?
Why should we share the blame?
Why should we grow?
Why should guys have ego?

Why is there dust?
When everybody enjoy lust,
Why should we study?
When people have to abuse, bloody,
Why should we wear?
When we are comfortable bare,
Why should we eat?
Why not jam up at some beat,

Why should we sleep?
Why should people weep?
Why don’t we smile?
Excuse me, just for a while.

We could do some little work,
Than just calling people jerks.

Ceremony To Obituary

2002-10-04T00:26:00.000-04:00

Heyam a kamikaze,
Guys, just take it easy.
Did always this for all the money,
Gotto look at you, oh my honey.

Happily tied the knot,
But still wanted the gold pot,
Memories relished, & had all break,
To learn something all just for sake.

Had a call from the mission,
Jesus, u know had no ambition,
All that had a bit rough,
All could do just believed in tough.

Death for the cause you could think,
Close your eyes have a blink,
Have the wish,
Have the pray,
Have the zeal,
Have the zest,
So make a steal and f the rest.

By god’s grace everything is saved,
Hey, nobody could have behaved,
The manner my wife did,
All day & all day long,
She thought of me.
She thought of me.

Was packing bags from the warred world,
With some courage not very bold,
Just to find her dead, in the bed,
This was never in my head,
She was attacked by a disease,
Hey I was not at ease,

Hey was a kamikaze,
Guys, just don’t take it easy.

O.K. Tested

2002-10-01T12:00:00.000-04:00

Seasons for me come and go,
Just like a train on a rail-road,
I have to play this and make my way,
Leading life in a usual way,
Follow some rules but still play.

I have tasted this life,
& finally I have tested it.
O.K Tested.

Spent my pre- quats in education,
Did all that with no dedication,
Never thought of the criticism,
Friends believed in vandalism.

Spent my latter making music,
The time when I never felt homesick,
Wanted all cracks and nothing,
All the music done was a bit something.

Now I sleep complete calm,
Enjoyed my life in the farm,
All have to do just the same,
Just for the little fame.
I have tasted this life,
& finally I have tested it.

Organisation For Stimulation

2002-10-01T02:28:00.000-04:00

Am feeling low, am feeling old today,
Am missing the ones who were close,
Am missing the ones who were there,
Am missing the ones who left.

I know when you touch me,
You care for me,
I know when u kiss me,
You shower love upon me,
I know when I leave,
You miss our love.

I know, I know, one more thing,
That you are my organisation for stimulation.

Am feeling depressed, I cannot see,
Am missing the ones who were close,
Am missing the ones who were there,
Am missing the ones who left.

I know, when you work hard you carry the pains for me,
I know, when you feel bad you never want me know,
I know, when I rest in peace, you will sleep aside with me.
I know, I know, one more thing,
That you are my organisation for stimulation.

Rebirth

2002-09-30T14:15:00.000-04:00

The door is open, step inside,
Choose a partner, step aside,
Listen to that guy, that guy playing the guitar,
Playing my chord, & struck like light,
& when the chord stops so will my life.

Life is short, short with no fun,
Love is sick; it’ll hurt like a pin,
Let me live, live for a while,
So that I, I can see you die.

Meanwhile, learnt to rock, learnt to roll,
Played all the way, prayed all night long,
It gave me songs, it gave me tunes,
It gave me thongs, it gave me bombs.

So play it good, play it loud,
Play it again, listening in vain,
The song that meant for me, I finally understand.
So close the doors and let me sleep,
Sleep in the realm of calm,
My soul rests in peace.

Good People Are Short Lived

2002-09-21T12:12:00.000-04:00

I have always experienced it,
Nothing much in my life, like it,
What’s there is always there,
Bad things came on my lane,
To prove that god is insane,
I say this just to find that good people are always in line.

I don’t blame god for this,
But why should he do this,
Only to me and my friends family,
I can’t say this coz,
Have seen only much loss,
Thanks for the good things happened,
Thanks, lord, for given me much.

This happened with me,
And with my family,
This happened with my friend,
And with her family,
I say this just to find that good people are short lived.

I Hate Me

2002-09-19T01:22:00.000-04:00

I hate me for being alive,
I hate me for being born,
I don’t say this for you won’t know,
I don’t say this for you’ll go sore.

I hate me for not studying,
I hate me for not proving,
I hate me for not achieving,
I hate me for not growing,
I hate me for not being worth it.

No dedication, determination, recognition.
Gimme love,care,fame.
Hate me for not taking it up,
Taking up anything in my life.

Hate me for being like this,
Nothing, nothing , no results,
Operations on frustration.

I hate me for no friends,
I hate me for no kin’s,
I hate me for no family,
I hate me for no love.

Now, I hate me, my love, thy world,
Hate my head,
Love you dead,
Hate everything,
Operations on frustration.
And on modus operandi.

Alma Matters

2002-09-18T12:38:00.000-04:00

The literate folks of my Alma,
Tried their best to fuck my mind.

The literate folks of my Alma,
Tried their best to screw my arse.

The literate folks of my Alma,
Tried their best to take my bum,
And man did they have some fun.

Hello people,
Teach thy children,
Preach thy children,
Try your best to feed thy children.

Oldies of the past generation,
Come here to give us recognition,
Man, you need to change,
& your on going craze.

I never was a prankster,
Never was a spoilt rat,
Was as good as a child could get,
Tried hard to study hard,
But the oldie never understood.

C’mon c’mon to the life of reality,
Love thy child, give thy knowledge,
My alma mater,
Started loving it,
Loving to hate it.

I was first in school,
I was last who understood,
Was a sport,
Played all games, participated all quests,
My alma mater,
Started loving it,
Loving to hate it.
Cannot deny it,
But you got to prove me,
How I am dying to be,
An Alma matters to me.

Dress Code : Black

2002-09-07T02:30:00.000-04:00

Wanted it old, wanted it rugged,
Wanted it low,
My jeans, I wanted it loose,
I wanted it black.

Wanted it cool, wanted it coloured,
Wanted it smart,
My tees, I wanted it smart,
I wanted it black.

Wanted it wet, wanted it gelled,
Wanted it straight,
My hair, I wanted it short,
I wanted it black.

Wanted it different, wanted it to rock,
Wanted it bad,
My gad, wanted it thrash,
I wanted it black.

I wanted it high,
This will never go low,
I wanted it to be a switch,
This has only one flow,
I want my self-esteem,
That no one can ever show.

Now, I wanna music,
I wanna rock,
I wanna love.
I never want this black.

Destination Grave

2002-09-05T12:48:00.000-04:00

Wanted life to be fun,
As in the toddler class,
Not a pain in the arse,
But still lived it,
Half-hearted, not satisfied,
Never liked it,
I always had to lick it.

I still want to live,
I wanna live my life,
But not this way,
That kills me softly.

I never wanna die,
Coz I knew I will love,
Someone, someday, sometime,
Who makes me happy.

I never wanna die,
Coz I knew I will suceed,
Someone, someday, sometime,
Who makes me proud.

I go crazy,
I go nuts,
I need a different butt,
I need something different,
Death c’mon death,
Wanted to feel it, experience it,
Wanted to see life,
Life after death.

I crave a near death experience today,
Nobody knows, nobody cares,
Oh life,
I never liked it, coz nobody liked me,
I never loved it, coz nobody loved me,
I never felt it, coz nobody felt me.
I see the angels in the dark sky,
I see they call me to their freight train,
But I wanna sleep tonight,
In my dark grassy grave.

Venom Lust

2002-09-04T11:42:00.000-04:00

Dead fathers, widowed mothers,
Armless brothers, with no one left to butcher.

I come my dear,
I come for you thee, with needles in my neck,
Which might work as pain killers?
But you don’t know its killing me,
& let me say I want it to happen with me.

It killed me when I was in love,
It killed me when I was in pain,
It killed me when I met you,
And I don’t want to see you again.

Lost my name, and lost the game,
Lost my fame and lost the friends,
Lost my happiness and lost my sleep,
Lost thy family and lost their love.
I lost them all when I met you.
I can’t feed your greed,
I can’t satisfy your need.

Fuck you, go away, and run away,
I don’t want to see you again,
Gimme space, gimme solace,
For you can’t give me what I lost,
Thanks for the one thing that you gave me.
You made me experience death.

Now I say,
Let’s go, let’s go, to the meadows,
I will take you on a silver car,
For you know meadows are like quick sand,
And I bet, I won’t lend my hand.

Killed me, killed my freedom, killed my liberty,
Killed everything.

Hey, you are not in my life,
And you are not my wife,
So may your sole cry all the while.

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One of my college mates, Ran, helped me pen down few lines for Venom Lust. Thanks Ran!!

Rockaholic

2002-09-03T23:46:00.000-04:00

When I got this life,
I felt everything’s achieved,
But still feel deceived,
I thought of something guys,
I want to speak it out.

The boy’s zone is undisturbed,
The westlife is moving on to the east,
Backstreets backing up the street,
The bands keep on yapping a lot.

Eagles soared high, were never extinct,
Always carried guns,
To tame the damn scorpions,
The Beatles were shiny,
The Adams were tiny.

We believe deep in purple,
& were into dire straits,
I wanted it straight from the heart,
Told you ‘bout this part,
The hero couldn’t escape from the cage,
Coz, this is new age.

The doors were redone,
The Floyds helped me get done,
We got depressed,
Nobody could suppress.

But guys’ eminem was inclined,
Nobody could decline,
And to say,
Pantera committed suicide,
Sep was killed, what a site!
Slayer was slayed,
Slip tied the knot,
Sabbath the boss ,could make up for all the loss.
Here. I was done,
& nothing else mattered.

Masses had them mocked,
Instead they all rocked.
What should I say?
What more should I say now?

I just got a painkiller today.

To Err Is Life

2002-09-03T02:19:00.000-04:00

I wanted some gifts – chivalry,
Life gave us this – rivalry,
Made me speed demon purposely.

I know everything; everything is nothing,
I am rich; richness in plight,
I am in love; Is love hating someone?
I hath all; all is void,
Everyone’s kind; kindness betrays,
I have friends; none as one,
Foes many; many among one.

Wanted something,
Expected lots,
Not to me,
For the whole lot,
Never happened,
Tried lots,
Still frustrated,
Frustrated lots.

I wish I could change,
The whole world,
Change the weird things,
But I got tired,
I found it hard,
Found it possible,
But all in vain,
I still find it possible,
For life ahead is miserable.

Me in my heart, find a lot,
A lot in Caracas meat, corpses and decayed bones.
Death rules, ghosts sing,
Creepers handcuff me, this is deep dark duyeon.
Still I smile, smile with tears,
Tears I found, not water but blood.

Now how I wish I were blind,
No hate could bend my mind,
Trudging now day by day,
Creeping to death on this highway.

Gloom and harsh speak aloud,
But I am already deaf.

This is how things cook up,
Life’s this,
This is life,
If this is life, I asked,
What’s death?
Tomorrow you shall know,
Voiced he armoured and masked.

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Bro, if you remember some lines were actually penned down by you! I stole them!

‘BOUT ADVERT – I – SING

2002-09-01T10:18:00.000-04:00

I got a brother who’s lazy,
Sometimes I feel he’s so crazy,
But still he talks bout creativity,
What I feel is stupidity,
He never took his steps back,
Coz he felt he’s got the knack.

I never knew Neil French,
I swear, I never understood O&M,
And it ain’t no lie,
That there’s a pie up high in the sky,
He’s got up from his bed,
To really forge ahead.

He felt the people would mind,
All to see that my folks were so kind,
So, he started wearing little beads,
And sown some little seeds,
But I never understood a bit,
All I feel it is shit.

And he’s making it up to me,
With little misery,
He wants to be atop a tree,
That will make him feel free.

He’s jammed up with the Hans,
Which he thinks will make up at the Cannes.

Well, good to see ,
Released his pee,
Grey matter gained,
Got a name,
Felt the lift,
I feel the same.
Do you ?

The Past 10's

2000-04-15T20:13:00.000-04:00

Now I see it / now I don’t,
He has reached there I haven’t,
I was late / I couldn’t,
Growing old / feeling cold,
Stop me mamma / stop me,
I ain’t feeling bold.

Am I the only one, the only chosen one,
Belief’s disbelief / opportunities lost,
Luck’s no relief / life is a rot,
Pessimism prevails / health fails.

Critics laugh / but everyone is one,
Darkness is time,
And the sun never shone.

Everything’s irrelevant,
And I am the hunt,
I am the predator / I am the prey,
Even god has nothing to say,
Why is it so? / Why has been it so?

Hopes disappear,
Blur into the background,
I am growing blind,
End is near / cruel kind.

Why am I doing this?
You shall never know / neither shall I?
Get aside,
Ignorance is considered bliss.

He had said this,
And he had done,
I shall throw the moon,
And save the sun.

Who are you, you mighty man,
How can you, how can you,
He laughed until all way,
To stop around and say,
You shall see, you ever will,
He has reached there, you also will,
Join him and learn his skill.

Now I know this mighty man,
Here I stood, there I ran,
He was a pulse ago,
Believe me my alter ego,
That still,
“I am the child of the lesser god.”

--Penned by my bro